We were born 100% authentic. Then we were domesticated out of our authenticity. We were taught a fear-based and seperative way of perceiving the world.
As a result we seek acceptance, we try to fit in, we try to be “normal” and in the process, we moved farther and farther out of our authenticity. When we succeeded in becoming what I call our “domesticated self.” We began to see ourselves, others, and our world, through a distorted lens. We made agreements based on what we saw through that lens and called it “reality”. Defining reality in this way and calling it the truth could very well be our first mistake.
In my early youth as result of a spontaneous Kundalini release I had a potent experience of heaven on earth. I fully experienced “on earth as it is in heaven” for about 3 days. Unfortunately, to my greatest detriment, this experience was not considered “normal” or " healthy” by the authority figures in my life, so I was forced against my desire to believe that my experience was the result of a disease!
I had what I consider to be the experience of all experiences, and then I was told: “You are sick and in need of medical treatment.” They may as well have said to me: “ Dude, I am sorry that you have lost touch with reality here; BUT YOU HAVE! You are in fact; IN HELL, just like the rest of us here! Whether you like it or not, you will learn to agree with US and THEN you CAN experience HELL exactly as WE DO, and when YOU DO, you can once again see things as WE DO, and suffer just like WE DO, and YOU will like it whether YOU like it or not!.”
During my first 18 years of life I was a prisoner of a common form of domestication-based knowledge on earth. Then, after that major shift of my assemblage point, I was given a glimpse of a reality that previously seemed only to exist as stories in the bible and in myths and legends.
I will never forget the power inherent in that experience. There was a truth to it that that my authentic self could not deny. I could NEVER deny it as long as I choose NOT to believe in the lies that I was told by the authority figures who only perceive (and perpetuate) the experience: “ On earth as it is in hell.”
I contemplated this experience for a long time after and it was not until I was introduced to the works of Carlos Castaneda and other shamanic related topics that I began to see that my experience was authentic and that there are valid methods to recreate that kind of experience and many more! I studied and practiced shamanism and energy healing for a long time and I had many experiences that defy ordinary explanation.
In 2003 I had a dream where I felt so strongly that I did not know how to be my authentic self. In the dream I was walking in a Native American camp and I was keeping an eye out for a medicine person who might be able to help me tap my authenticity. Toward the end of the dream I was walking along the shore of a lake and I saw a medicine person staring at me over the tip of an eagle feather. Suddenly I felt an immense wave of energy hit me and I woke up.
The next day I was at a book store and I saw a copy of The Four Agreements by don Miguel Ruiz. I picked it up and and read:
“ There is something inside you that longs to be free; it is always telling you “This is not who I really am. This is not what I really want”. You are not free to be who you really are because you are trapped by the images of what you think you should be”
I read this and felt that this book had the “medicine” that I was apparently looking for in the dream. I found gems of wisdom in don Miguel’s teachings that had a profound impact on my life.
Since then I have done my best to free myself from the shackles of my domestication in order to regain my authenticity, suffer less, and enjoy more.
The purpose of this blog is to share my experiences while on my path to freedom and to connect with others who are walking similar paths. Please feel free to post comments, questions, and suggestions as I am hoping to make this an interactive forum that can benefit the readers. If you resonate with the contents of this blog I encourage you to become an active member.
